new challenges

the holidays have been over and the semester comes in and of course, there will be more challenges this time round. even before the semester begins, i, somehow, could see and sense that those challenges come into existence signalling me to come out of my comfort zone. day after day i begin to realise that God is preparing me to come out, speak up and play my roles such as time as this. it's not the time to just sit down and listen but it's time to speak up girl.

frankly speaking, i don't like speaking in the public. preferrably, i rather go for one to one basis kinda interaction. it's weird because as a law student i supposed to speak confidently in the public. this semester, i definitely cannot escape at all. 3 out of 4 subjects that i'm taking for this semester have something to do with public performance like mooting, case presentation and leading the discussion in the class. Omg speaking in front of 50-70 students, just sweep my brain off. things that i know very well just dissappeared in a minute. i hope it wont happen this time. huhhh

apart from studies, ministry demands the same thing (kids ministry, worship team ministry and bible studies ministry). a friend of mine asked me to lead the word in OCF (oversea christian fellowship) with the other 2 leaders. from the outset of offer, i took sometimes to consider it and finally i decided to take the offer. i know..i know..i should not even think twice when God asks me so. i murmured saying 'seriously, speak up in the crowd? now? i'm not ready yet'. 'oh well, ready or not you are on'. as the time passed by, piece by piece revealed unravelling God's purpose for me in Tassie, i.e. to serve Him actively and at the same time He wants to build my confident which i dont have.

oh God, i need a breakthrough to overcome this fear and i pray that You will lead me. i rely heavily on You alone for i'm incapable of doing these things alone.