"2009"

In tiredness, the thought of having my own quite time came to mind. Just me, I and ika that I wanted for New Year Eve. But it had never happened. Rather it only happened after 3am. Although my quite time was rather late, I was glad that finally I could make it. I have lots of things in my mind. I was not feeling discouraged by what I found and heard (not absolutely, only slightly). It became my focus in the year of 2009. Cheering up the loved one when I felt the most broken was something that God has distracted me away from focusing on the problems. The loved one needed courage and supports to stand by and to tell her that I love her so much. I’d do anything for her. But I made a big mistake. I was really really angry and disappointed at my brother. In anger I poured out what came to mind. It should not be that way and I’m so sorry for that. I took a deep breath trying to cool down. I could only pray that God will open up your heart to truly see what’s going on.

Anyway, this New Year was my second best new year ever in my life. Last year was the year where God tested my faith. It was truly true that even though the suffering was last throughout the night (and at the same time I felt hopeless), His joy came in the morning. It’s like God gave me a reward for waiting patiently for him to act on time. A big smile was put on my face. :D :D :D

This New Year is the year of freedom, I can decide where I wanted to spare my New Year Eve and do whatever I wanted to do without someone telling me what to do and where to go.lol, this is only a temporary feeling. The truth is this year is a year of faith. There are lots of things that if I see with my own bare eyes are impossible to get them restored and transformed. What God has been telling me these days is to acknowledge Him, His Power and anything that He can do through me as I have my faith set on Him. Basically, it is to take shelter at His words and faithfulness. Oh no, I didn’t realize that God has repeatedly told me this until I flashed back on His words that I have read. Okie, I got it Now.

To sum up, I say I enter the year of 2009 with faith. Everything is gonna be alright.