battlefield

I really wish i can talk to someone freely without hiding anything.
and being truthful in spilling out this battlefield of mine.
someone that i can be accountable to.
i hate the way i am right now.
being someone that i hate the most in my life.
being someone that i really wish will never exist.

but God is awesome
He never ever leave me
He left me His promise that really encouraged me
"we are hard-pressed on every side
but not crushed. perplexed but not destroyed"

i still have a long way to go
i choose not to be discouraged by the situation where i am in rite now
because i know i'll be renewed each day to be a person he formed me to be
but i still need that someone, just to be accountable to
i pray that God will place someone for me