What is Your Name?

At first I thought it would be very easy to answer that question. To simply say “Fransisca”. But the truth is it isn’t. Why? This reflects back to the question have I been living as Fransisca God has made? Or am I pretending to be someone else or live to the expectation of others? Am I satisfied to have Me as Me and not someone else who is better than Me? Am I grateful for the things that God has given me?


To answer those questions, it takes courage for me to say NO I AM NOT. Sometimes, I do compare myself to others and ask God why that person better off than me? Why is it I keep on failing when I have tried so hard to achieve that goal? Why some people could achieve it even though I know they are not really putting so much work on it?
I realize I have been asking the wrong questions. Well, I think, if God does not shape me as I am right now, I will never find God. I will never know that He’s real because through my weaknesses and incapability I FOUND HIM. And I know that through HIM I can do all things. Another answer will be ‘Jesus would die for nothing if all of us have all human beings could have asked for or desired to have (wealth, high intelligence and so on)’. God asks us to love one another and to support one another so that when one falls, the other could help. If we all smart and capable of doing things, how could we show the love that Jesus has shown us. Whilst Jesus on earth, He healed the sick, He helped the needy. That is love.


The same thing applies to me. Through my weaknesses, He places people surrounding me to support me. That’s the way God shows of Himself to me. In essence, God is actually drawing me closer to His heart – to let me know that I am precious in His eyes and I am closed to His heart. He wants to tell me that He as my Father will do all things to protect me. Let me give you an illustration, when the storm, thunder, lightning come, surely as a baby or a child you will cry loudly because all you could think of or see is those storm, thunder and lightning. You forget that your dad is holding you close to his heart. He will do all things to protect you, to comfort you and say to you that ‘it’s alright, daddy is here’. The same things happened to you and I, in hard times, all that we can see is the whole world is gonna collapse and we tend to forget, God is there and He knows what we are going through.


Come back to the identity question. I am glad for who I am and I pray that you and I would live a life according to the path that God has made for you. He chose that path for you not for nothing but for something greater that you are yet to see as you walk your journey faithfully.