Sunday, November 23, 2008

Logic or Lame Gags

Get together at Michelle’s house on Saturday. I cooked the seaweed fried noodles and fried eggs with a thick tomato and semi-caramelized onions. The fried eggs are actually my dad’s recipe.

After lunch, we sat in the circle. Calvin, oh my gosh, was playing computer games since I came till I went back home. I can’t believe he could sit for the whole day in front of the computer. Anyway he’s still listening to the gags. Here...some of the gags

Why, in the past, the superman used to two hands straighten up to fly but now, he used only 1 hand? In the past, it was still manual (you gotta imagine that the steer and the gear were just in front of the superman’s hands). But Now it’s auto already.

There is a young man wanting to head to a true town. But at the end of the road, there are 2 lanes, one heading to the true town and the other is a lying town, and the signboard has been broken to the point where it’s not readable anymore. And there is another old man standing just next to the broken signboard and that young man can only ask him one question. If you are in that young man’s position, what would you ask to get into the true town? Answer – bring me to your town – if he is from the new town, he will bring that young man to the true town. Even if he’s from the lying town, he will still bring that young man to the true town because he’ll never bring that young man to the lying town because he’s a liar – because of his upbringing in the lying town.

Why do you think the superman’s attire is so tight? Answer – it is because the size is ‘S’

What the digital watch tells his mom? Answer – mom, I don’t have a hand
There are 2 paws, the red bean and the kaya paws, and they are watching movie in the cinema? The red bean is laughing and the kaya is crying? Why? Answer – because they have different feeling.

There were many more but I won’t post them. Coz ?????

Now it is left to you. You judge yourselves. Lame or logical?

Friday, November 21, 2008

Crazy Facts

how does it feel to fall in love? people say the world is theirs and they are completely happy. yea because they are in love. as for me, on one hand, I am happy but on the other hand, it causes of me lots of pain. you must be thinking that there is something wrong with me. I'll state my reasons in the following.

firstly, I cannot sleep because I keep thinking about him and as a result it causes me insomnia

secondly, my appetite swings because all i want is to eat together with him. thus, in the end of the day, i'm having gastric.

thirdly, I cannot concentrate on my studies because all i have in mind is him and him alone. as a result, my academic grades go down

fourthly, my heart palpitates crazily, my hands sweat, my face is red, my speech slurred, my body is shaking. then here comes the moment 'are you alright'? oh no..do you know how embarrassing is that? this is a complete disaster i reckon

do you see my points? is this normal or something? does love make you insane? oh, definitely yes

Nevertheless, i choose to fall in love because it is just so exciting to feel that way even though it is weird and crazy. above all, to fall in love is beautiful. i cannot express it with words, you gotta feel it yourself. but be ready for the side effects..LoL

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

An Overwhelmed Mind

I’ve been thinking about my friend, Yohanna, over and over again. It seems like she cannot get out of my head. I have never felt this way before. I’m anxious because she didn’t reply my message. I hope she’s coping well. My other friend told me she was being operated a week ago. She got cancer. She messaged me a week ago but she didn’t tell me that she was sick all this while. I’m really worried about her. It seems that she didn’t want to talk about it. Please, I just want to tell her that I’m here stand by her side even though it is impossible to be physically present in front of her. But at least, I would like to encourage her in any possible way.


Yohanna is my closed friend since elementary school till now. She’s always been a naughty one. She’s also a cheerful one. Sorry that I didn’t follow up with you lately. I hope and pray that you’ll be strong. Do not give up. Do not allow that cancer to pull you down. You should give a lesson to that cancer that it will not limit you in any way to be who you really are, as yohanna that i know. So, berjuang ya Ana.

cheer up babe

Sorry That I Question You Too Much

praying under a blanket makes me into thinking that it is just between me and God and no matter whether my roommate comes in and out of the room it does not matter anymore.with an expectation heart and scrupulous attitude i began to talk to God. in desperate i prayed saying i'm thankful that You called me into Your Kingdom and those people who were already known You. But how about those people in the far-fetched places where it might not be possible to reach out. who's going to reach out to them and tell them about You. and who is going to continue the mission to places that have been reached out. and How those people who are intelligently disabled or mentally disturbed would understand how's it felt to be Christian? to understand You fully as who You really are. Lord, sorry that i question You so much, but I wanna know. You have created them not to destroy them right?

guess what? God answered my prayer. it's from the book of Isaiah 59:1-21, particularly verses 16-21.
'the Lord looked and was displeased that there was no justice. He saw that there was no-one to intervene;so his own arm worked salvation for him and his own rightenousness sustained him. he put on righteousness as his breastplate, and the helmet of salvation on his head...from the west, men will fear the name of the Lord and from the rising of the sun and they will revere his glory...'. in summary, basically God imparted to me that i should not worry about them but He will take a good care of them. He himself will work out their salvation and He will not abandon them. as i was listening to a song title 'beautiful saviour', it's not just a beautiful song to hear. its lyrics, as i meditated upon the words, reflect the meaning Isaiah 59. it says

all heaven shout you praise
all creation bows to worship you

yea in the end of the day, all creations will bow to worship Him because He draw all men to Himself. i encourage you to read Isaiah 59 yourself. enjoy =)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

An Accident

warning for those who are riding a motorcyle. do not ride when your mind is blank because it gives you no benefit but an accident. my brother daniel just got into an accident just 2 days before his b'day. my mom was crying and i was shocked. he can neither walk nor sit at the moment. his hip bone is disconnected but he has been treated.

i called him and he told me that his mind out of sudden was gone blank. he said usually this kind of accident, the motorcyclist would surely be gone but because of God's mercy he's still alive. i can imagine how bad it was and i think my mom must be crying so badly.

i just wanna pray that you be revitalised and be well soon. and i warn you strictly, Daniel, that you are not allowed and certainly shall not ever again ride a motorcycle.

be well brother

Connect Group & Max's B'day





this is where i belong. they are all my family. some of them were not here



no idea why shaun like to take unclear picture.



the B'day boy Max was going to be killed. was he still alive then? erm?? check it out



yeeeee he's still alive. much more alive. thank goodness.



Alex and Faith



KP..see marcus snuck up



the happy face



the sad face



Shaun and I


i miss you all and i'm gonna miss you when i'm leaving. oh no..another sayonara..

Habakkuk 1 & 2

i was reading the book of Habakkuk before i go to bed and i discovered that the author was just complaining to God because He was silent even though He certainly knew what was going on at the point in time. the first time the author complained saying:

'How long oh Lord must i call for help, but you do not listen?'
'i cried out to You violence but You do not save?'

and the Lord answered
'look at the nations and watch and be utterly amazed.for I am going to do something in your days that you wouldn't believe, even if you were told. I am raising up the Babylonians (Chaldeans), that ruthless and impetuous people...'

I was amazed by God's answer because it shows that God is a merciful God that does not look at what those people have done in the past. He's calling all the sinners to Himself. He wants to save them. hang on there...this promise isn't only for those people in the past but also for people of this generation. keep on praying for God promises to do something in out midst, yea in this world.

the second time the author complained to God saying
'your eyes are too pure to look on evil; you cannot tolerate wrong.WHY then do you tolerate the treacherous?why are You silent while the wicked swallow up those more righteous than themselves?'

God's answer
'write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. for the revelation awaits an appointed time;it speaks of the end and will not prove false. THOUGH IT LINGER, wait for it;it will certainly come and will not delay.'

this verse is actually an answer to prayer. a prayer that pushed God to act quickly because it has been too long to remain in that situation. i wondered why it took so long for God to turn around the situation. isn't He wanted their salvation as well. But why has it not taken placed even after i have prayed for it. doesn't He have a power to draw men to Himself? the above verse is the answer. God gently insisted me to write their names on tablets of my heart and continue to pray for them. for sure, the revelation will come and will not delay.

this verse also reveals to me that God is still alive and hears my desperate prayers and my hope does not make in vain. while waiting for the promise to be fulfilled, i need God to strengthen my faith in Him so that i wont stop hoping and praying about it.

brothers and sisters, do you mind to accompany me in prayer because at this time i feel im having this burden all to myself and it seems that i have no company at all. i feel that i have been praying alone. it does not matter whether or not you know what i was talking about. just pray with me. thank you very much for all of you.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Beyond My Understanding

Lord, i want to learn to be more thankful in everything that is happening to me and my family. i want to learn to wait upon You patiently. not so much questioning You as to what you really want me and my family to know out of this circumstances. How long oh Lord for this to happen. how long you want to see me crying. i'm tired.i'm exhausted. i need rest.take this yoke from me or else do not let me know about all these things.

i just need You to act quickly. yeah quickly oh Lord. i'm desperate.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

My Big Boy

my brother and i were just talking on the phone. i just realize that he has grown up to be a big boy. i remembered when he came to my school at my grandama's hometown, the headmaster gave him 2 really huge bananas. he held them with his tiny hands and ate them all. i could not believe he could actually finish them all. since then i called him a monkey.

eventhough he has grown up, we still spend time together just like we used to be when he was still small. everytime i go back to indonesia, surely i'd sleep in his room. he will share all kinds of things before we go to bed like jokes, his girlfriends and etc. so basically, the night is full of laughter.

one thing i didn't realize till yesterday was that he's all alone by himself sometimes. he said he just needed someone to share something that is in his heart. i offered him myself saying 'well i'll call you once a week and you can tell all is in your heart'. i think he just misses me so much but he does not want to tell me.

this month on the 16th is his b'day. what would be the best gift i could offer? i think i'll talk to him all night long and of course i'd get him something. i just pray that he may grow stronger in Christ and be a big boy that i could be proud of.

love you Daniel Clinton

Monday, November 10, 2008

2nd Chance

HAHA I just began with a laughter because I wonder why God is so good to me even after I've done to Him. i'm glad that i have this day taken place in my life. basically, through God's grace i've been given a second chance. i have been wondering what's gonna happened if i didn't take action. well, i thought that second chance would come next year, but it didn't. it happened right here and at this time. Oh Gosh i was silent though. but My God doesn't help me in silent. He helped me in a way that i couldn't never even imagined it could possibly happen. it's just impossible to happen. But God makes it possible to happen in order to show me He's always faithful. when I give up, He's not giving up on me.

So, since i have been given this very second chance, i wanna work hard on this. I promise. But i still acquire your help and company God.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Over The News

do you still remember what happened on October 12, 2002 in Bali? let me refresh your mind. that's where Amzori, Mukhlas and Ali Imron blasted the nighclubs in Bali killing 202 people including 88 Australians. the good news is they died already. do i sound like an evil person because i take joy at someone's grievance? I don't think so.

lest anybody curses me because i take that stand, let me justify myself through all the facts that i reckon you might want to kill them with your bare hands as well. i strongly believe that the 3 bombers were sick in their minds. they were dare to say that they were died martyrs if they were being executed. martyrs? please how could a person claim to die as martyrs when they intentionally killed those people? their execution is what we called in law 'restrospective sentencing'. so what indonesian Criminal Justice System has done is absolutely in tune with the rule of law. the worst was they did not regret for what they have done. rather they claimed that what they were doing was just their duty to God. throughout their trials, their nonchalant demeanour made them to be nicknamed as 'Smiling Bombers'. what a bomber..

one thing i found it unusual and to my mind confirm that Amrozi was out of his mind already, Amrozi constitutionally challenged against the use of firing squads. why? because he preferred beheading. his challenge dropped and accordingly, the first method prevailed. to my mind, what's the different? it is still after all a death penalty.

i think i have enough talking about those bombers because i started feeling sick talking about them. they are so selfish and have no sense of humanity at all. i hope it would be the first and the last generation of sadistic bombers in indonesia..no more please.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Leisure

i was just finished watching 'anger management'. a pretty good show though a little bit crazy..i laughed non-stop forgetting that the laugh was a trigger to my itchy and dry throat..*coughing

Adam Sandler was just a sweet man who could not control his implosive anger. this type of anger is hard to tell whether the person is actually angry. they love to hide their anger under their skin. but once it gets to the max, it's gonna explode unexpectedly and bang...you would be suprised. on the contrary, the explosive type of anger, you wont be suprised after all because you probably see them get angry for most of the time.

besides it is humorous, i take a lesson out of the movie..fidelity..ya that's the word. no matter how hard the anger management man and a sick flirty women tried to get him, he's loyal to his girlfriend Linda. that women was already partly nude in front of him (ya partly only), he said to that woman, "well, that *b are part that i hate the most because i have girlfriend.so better keep it girl"..well, im not saying there is no loyal men here on earth. there are but not many. women as well. so let's change our behaviour. go for the healthy one..fidelity is healthy.

=) =P

Hey Jude

Hey jude, dont make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

Hey jude, dont be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, hey jude, refrain,
Dont carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that its a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey jude, dont let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey jude, begin,
Youre waiting for someone to perform with.
And dont you know that its just you, hey jude, youll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.


this song just reminded me of my sweet and tiny cousin. he's just 4 years old when he sang this song. can you imagine how cute it is? it was so darn cute. imagine 4 years old boy who sometimes have his say mumbled could sing very well. his words were so clear. he sang with all his heart. i could see his neck's vein started shown off. im so happy when i found this song. i tried calling him but i could not get through. i'll try to call him till i get him on the phone because i want to sing with him. Hope i can get him ya..

Life After Exam

life after exam is like life without life. we all just don't know what to do. time moves so slow. tummy never gets hungry, well at least this applies to me only while the rest gets hungry as the whim takes them. eyes cannot compromise whenever blanket and pillow touch my skin but still i was force to be awake. all was because a damn old movie called dracula. it was not scary at all. alright forget about it.


Zhi Zhang, Calvin, Michelle and I had a movie marathon for 2 nights. unbelieavable, we did it. well it was not our intention to spend time unproductively. blame the weather for that. it's raining like no body business for 2 nights. so michelle and i were stranded in calvin's and zhi zhang's house. michelle and calvin did the cooking. zhi zhang and i did the cleaning. we whack all the foods. so zhi zhang and calvin have nothing to eat after we get to our homes. Hihi


one thing that really shocked me was because michelle was so daring to just speak right to jerry's face asking him to shut down..upsssss i was feeling uneasy at once but after that it was ok. jerry did not get angry. he even had a private conversation with michelle but it was not about that, it was all about 'trying to push michelle to go for calvin'. that's hilarious. anyway, what michelle was trying to do was just to ask jerry politely to keep his say after the movie because we could not hear what the actors were saying.


finally i get home today. UHHHH what a day

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Fever

Oh bad. be strong please. fever, sore throat and aches please go away. I still have one paper to sit next week. so co-operate with me.Okay..Cool..

What is Your Name?

At first I thought it would be very easy to answer that question. To simply say “Fransisca”. But the truth is it isn’t. Why? This reflects back to the question have I been living as Fransisca God has made? Or am I pretending to be someone else or live to the expectation of others? Am I satisfied to have Me as Me and not someone else who is better than Me? Am I grateful for the things that God has given me?


To answer those questions, it takes courage for me to say NO I AM NOT. Sometimes, I do compare myself to others and ask God why that person better off than me? Why is it I keep on failing when I have tried so hard to achieve that goal? Why some people could achieve it even though I know they are not really putting so much work on it?
I realize I have been asking the wrong questions. Well, I think, if God does not shape me as I am right now, I will never find God. I will never know that He’s real because through my weaknesses and incapability I FOUND HIM. And I know that through HIM I can do all things. Another answer will be ‘Jesus would die for nothing if all of us have all human beings could have asked for or desired to have (wealth, high intelligence and so on)’. God asks us to love one another and to support one another so that when one falls, the other could help. If we all smart and capable of doing things, how could we show the love that Jesus has shown us. Whilst Jesus on earth, He healed the sick, He helped the needy. That is love.


The same thing applies to me. Through my weaknesses, He places people surrounding me to support me. That’s the way God shows of Himself to me. In essence, God is actually drawing me closer to His heart – to let me know that I am precious in His eyes and I am closed to His heart. He wants to tell me that He as my Father will do all things to protect me. Let me give you an illustration, when the storm, thunder, lightning come, surely as a baby or a child you will cry loudly because all you could think of or see is those storm, thunder and lightning. You forget that your dad is holding you close to his heart. He will do all things to protect you, to comfort you and say to you that ‘it’s alright, daddy is here’. The same things happened to you and I, in hard times, all that we can see is the whole world is gonna collapse and we tend to forget, God is there and He knows what we are going through.


Come back to the identity question. I am glad for who I am and I pray that you and I would live a life according to the path that God has made for you. He chose that path for you not for nothing but for something greater that you are yet to see as you walk your journey faithfully.