Girls' Day

all the girls on the girls' day outting


look at the shape of the flower, it's butterfly



that's my brother daniel

despite the fact that i mentioned previous posting that 'even though i know that God was watching over me, he knew my struggles, but He was silent', he spoke to me in the midst of my busyness. it was through my brother daniel. Daniel wished me 'a very loving and touching happy birthday'. through this message and concurrently God asked me not to look back but to see and run to achieve what is ahead of me. from that point i realised that i have been reflecting back what has been happening to me (not a good one, but the struggles that i did not manage to handle). and that memory flash back didn't allow me to go anywhere else.i was basically distracted whenever i tried to do other things that i supposed to get done. again and again i could not concentrate. there God rescued me, He texted (dont take it literally-it was through my brother) me "DON'T LOOK BACK, MOVE ON"..well, i laughed when i found this and i said to myself "God, you are really God. You never leaves me nor forsake.You remind me to do the things that i almost want to ignore intentionally...

the next one is a different story altogether. yesterday, janice, Carolyn, Li Yin and I had so called the girls' day outting. we spent the whole day having fun. at first we had lunch at Mures. the foods were fantastic. the view was awesome. they even served us with a bottle of red wine (it comes together with the set lunch). considering that it would be a waste of money to just throw the whole wine because janice and Li yin could not drink even for a sip, Carolyn and I had to finished the wbole bottle of wine. i started feeling not stable at the end of the last sip. but thankgoodness, the effect of the wine did not last for the whole day (it last for 2 hours only). lousy wine i supposed. anyway, after lunch, we went all the way up to botanical garden. on Man, the flowers were beautiful. i wished my house is nearby that garden so that i can at least take a walk whenever i feel stress out.

after about 8pm, we decided to dine out in the city. we went to restaurant called 'blue sky'. the foods were really really nice. the portion was quite small but it was just enough to stuff in into our stomach because after all we weren't so hungry when we decided to have dinner. it is just a routine that all human beings has to do. LOL. after 9pm+ we wanted to take a bus and we walked up all the way from the restaurant to the bus stop. unexpectedly, 3 Australian young boys looking drunk, started to walk from the right side of the road to the left side of the road where we all walked. they intended to approach us actually. feeling scared, i run because the 3 stupid man starting to walk faster towards us. things became worst. they run and screamed and insulted us at the same time. we walked back to the restaurant and the manager called up a taxi and paid for the taxi. he apologised for what has happenned to us because this things wont usually happened in Tasmania..well well..who knows..i kena twice already..what an experience. the funny thing from this incident was when Li Yin run like a train..buuuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i was the one running first but then i stopped running to see who comes after me. little i know it was my friend Li Yin. i stunt thinking wow she could really run man..i found this really really funny...

don't worry, we got back home saved. we watched the OCF's drama production till late nite..all have fun

Does God Answer Prayers?

Now i know when people say it is easy to praise God when things go our ways. but it is so hard to praise God when storm hits us so badly. well last time, that phrase didn't apply to me, at least not absolutely. that was because God became so real to me in times of trouble. in other words, there was always a lesson behind all things that occurred in which it was beyond my comprehension.

However, a few days ago, i reliased that i find it hard to praise and even pray when things didn't work out the way i wanted it to be. i felt discourage and angry with God and literally blamed him for all things that happened to me. and i was angry as well when i held up unto His promises but nothing seemed to change the stress and disasterous circumstances that came along my ways at that point in time. though i know He was wacthing over me but still he was silent when i cried out. BUT i did not stop there, i still hope that God would incline His ear to my prayers and speak to me just like the way He has always been.

today, God was actually answering my prayers through that short and powerful video. little i know that Jesus actually did pray that he didn't want to take up the cup (to die on the cross). He prayed "Father if it is possibly, take up this cup from Me". but hang on there...Jesus didnt say that He changed His mind to set us free. that passage imparts a message that Jesus prayed honestly to His Father about what He felt. although God felt crush in His heart He still prayed "if it is not possibly to take the cup up from me, let not mine but thy will be done". the end result of Jesus's sacrifice, as we all already know, is our salvation.

through this video, God desires me to talk to Him in the Honest way. he wants me to report to Him what im going through throughout the day..He wants to know why i was crying and what i wanted even though certainly He knew all of it before it actually happened. the purpose of praying is to CONNECT ME WITH GOD and CONNECT ME WITH THE CIRCUMSTANCES. so He challenged me to JUST PRAY whatever and whenever things happened. stop focusing on your problems but start praying because prayers move mountain, bring changes,peace and hold us strongly in our hope to God.

i apologise if you all cannot really get what im writing..to know exactly what i was talking about in the foregoing paragraph, i encourage you to watch the video. do not just take it, Test it (refer to the word of God)
enjoy =)

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Ocf

it has been considerably frequent, i reckon, that this blog is full of complaint lately. juz had a hard times that i find it tired to cry already. but dont worry, my God sustained me. He put lots of people to support, encourage and even to pray for me.
at this point, this entry is special for OCF and those people who have been such an influence to me. well i begin with a scanty story of my downfall in Hobart.seriously, it took me so long to recover from my downfall. i felt lonely and miserable. i questioned myself how could i allow myself not going to church for 3 weeks since my arrival in Hobart. erm, i should not make an excuse that i could not find one. it is so lame i reckon. anyways, my senior actually invited me to go church and i felt home when i was in church. since then, i found attachment with the church members and soon after that i joined OCF. it was in the day and by the seashore. the soothing sound of a guitar and gentle blow of the wind were juz perfect. but then the rain spoilt it..haha therefore, we had to escort ourselves back to the house. it was alright anyway-everyone had fun.

first semester, teng teng, i was not consistent in going to OCF. dont ask me why because i might give you tons of excuses

second semester, i started to go to OCF frequently, i mean every friday. unlike KDC cell, i have to walk myself up to the place where we always have a meeting.hehe it's not far anyway, it's just about 10 minutes walk from my house..i think this time is a time where God tests my faithfulness to Him. because nobody will message me every friday whether im going to OCF or not-not to say i have not received even one, there is but i can count. the people in OCF really have a heart to win Hobart, especially the uni students for Christ. many activities they engaged in to attract people to come to OCF to know Christ. i love the fact that they are warriors in prayers-they formed a prayer meeting every sunday morning and when it comes to exam, the exam timetables will be compiled and all will be praying for it.

i came to know them one by one and you know what i discovered, they are so loving. they even made a nickname for me 'fransisca totti'. haha i find it funny. Desmond said that when we play captain ball (like a net ball), he jokingly said that my legs were more active than my hands.i dont know how true it was.

i personally thank alice, shaun ewe, marcus and travis for being such a wonderful person. and the rest as well. i always run to them whenever i need someone to talk to. alice and shaun always give me a spiritual and material supports. marcus has always been a cheerful person. haha i tend to call him 'mr solution' because he likes to sing 'solution song'. travis is a playful person. travis and i cannot be together, he always find way to kacau me. huhhh but it's all jokes.haha. having said that i think i'll be missing him because he'll be staying in melbourne permanently. i wish him all the best in melbourne.

besides that, i just wanna to thank shaun once again for being so kind, warm and loving. i think through you, God has spoken a lot to me. i remembered when i called him in the middle of nite, i was the first time i could open up and share with people. i can offer nothing but thank you. may God bless you always my dear brother.

not to forget uncle frank. i was just sitting next to him last night. he asked me about my exam. he encouraged me in such a way that i bring me to the very foundation of my faith. he said 'God sees the beginning and the end but we only see a piece of that journey. therefore, trust Him to take you through this exam'. above all, i thank God that He has placed all these wonderful people in my life. now i know that i am not alone in this foreign country. i have them to walk this journey. i pray that God bless them abudantly.

keep on going OCF, win UTAS for Christ

loathe

in weary i came home from uni after all the threating criminology presentation...my head heavy and my eyes so much want to tear down. i feel so sad. i hate presentation. i did not talk that much during the presentation. although the idea of having the presentation was to engage the class to discuss the issues, but still, i feel bad. i was too nervous. i could not talk properly. although i could engage the class to talk, but still.... i dont know how to pour out my feeling into words...

i hate criminology right from the start. my assignment was incomplete. oh gosh, how i am going to pass this subject. the exam is only worth 15%..the assignment, oh no, it's 50%, seminar 15% and presentation is 15%. so basically, i only have that 15% to survive. i dont know whether it is enough for the passing mark.

so sad............

The Shepherd is the Lord

Luke 2:8-20

interesting facts to take heed
1. a watchful shepherd - watched the flocks even at night - i was just wondering why must the angels appeared to those shepherds who watched their flocks at night? i reckon God actually sees the hunger and desperate hearts that long to see salvation of their loves one.
2.they hurried to see baby Jesus when they were told about His birth
3.they told others about what has been told to them and seen by them. everyone amazed and the shepherds returned with a great joy and praised and worshiped God for the things they have heard and seen which were just as they have been told

things that i learned today
1. a good shepherd must be watchful (vs 8)
2. an example and perfect shepherd is Jesus
3. therefore, every shepherds (we) must take heed of what God has said and share it to others (vs 17). the only way to know what God has to say to you to do is through reading the word of God and surely God will impart to you His heart, i.e. He will tell you your tasks.
4. the last point i called it "rewards". we will find joy when God's promises are fulfilled. you will be amazed of how things happened in which you thought at the outset was impossible. i once felt an indescribeable joy in my heart when one of my friend that God has placed in my heart and the one that i have been praying for got save. it was a great great joy that i can still feel it even till today. this was the reward that God gave me. He imparted to me that He was happy to see one of His children embarked home. He shared His joy to me. i teared down when i remember this. not that i felt sad, but it is a tear of happiness.

aren't you curious to know about what makes God smiles.yea yea i know He always takes pleasure and smile even only by seeing us happy.i.e. seeing you breathing, eating, laughing, studying and playing. what i mean is arent you want to know His heart. arent you want Him to share that indescribeable joy that i was talking about. arent you to be suprised by God everyday? sure you want, dont you?

Indescribeable

sighing deeply and wondering in my mind about this weird feeling. really really weird. i cannot explain that. it afflicts me to the point where i lost my concentration. seriously, i just wanna get rid of this. it gives me no good at all. Oh No Help Me.....

What do i do

Restless days have always been my best friends recently. Sound odd. Haha. Overloaded with uni works. Feeling that I could not even carry myself, I halt for a moment, and decided to listen to some music. While listening, I closed my eyes and ended up praying bringing my supplication and pleas before Him. re-fuel me oh God, from You alone I draw my strength and in You I can find rest in the midst of these hectic schedules.

Interestingly, while I was praying, what was in my heart and mind was just poured into words questioning God ‘why do you still delay in drawing us closer to you?’. Your heart torn seeing us still in our wicked way and crying out because some do not know You yet. You have power to draw us all to You. you know what God was saying ‘ya I have power to do so, but what I wanted you to have is to have Me real in your life. I want to bring you on my journey, i.e. helping the needy or meeting the need and showing you that this is Me and hence this is what I wanted you to do. If you show love and help one another, you are showing the whole world or them that I live in you and surely sooner or later they will know Me.’