Aching

i woke up every morning with the bottom part of my body aching. strangely to say, i don't know what the possible causes are. it just happened since few days ago till now. why only attack my waist down to my toes? i hope it is not a long-died disease that has been resurrected. i used to have a continuous back-aching in which according to the diagnose of the chinese sensei and 21st century doctor, my back nerves and back-bones are not in its normal position. well, these were triggered when i fell down in the bathroom as far as i reckon and accelerated by my tendency to carry heavy things and prevalance to sit in the bad position. consequently, it is not really advisable to sleep in the cozy springbed. now i have to do exercises that the doctor recommended. I hope this aching won't last long. it's so painful, very very painful.

Cooking

mixing things that i have in the refrigerator is really fun. i have no idea how would it taste. guess what it taste good. i relish in throwing things that i can possibly find in the kitchen into my frying pan until i don't realize that the frying pan is already full of ingredients. the only problem i have in cooking is 'to eat it'. seriously i cannot eat it all and i don't like to refrigerate foods till the next day because i hardly remember that i have it in my refrigerator. unlike my mom and aunty, they can re-do the leftover and it taste even better. don't ask me how they do it. they are very handy with the leftover foods.

if you are hungry, just let me know. i'm very keen to cook for you.

Be Still

Be Still
Wait upon Me
Rest on Me
Stopped doing things
just enjoy My company
and My relationship with you

a real setting of mooting

I didn’t sleep a wink the day before our constitutional law mooting up to the real presentation. The rest of the team had a very sleepless and brainwashed day by all the justices in the cases that we were relying on to support our submissions. Now i really can feel the side effects of being unable to sleep even a minute. I have a terrible headache and am unable to concentrate. Surprisingly, I didn’t mumble during the questioning and delivering submissions. Anyways, it was a worthwhile sacrifice because we all did well though i did a very big mistake. I was not quite sure whether the single chief justice was asking me to make a summing up. I ended up proceeding to my second submission. well, traditionally, the counsel should ask the court's permission to proceed to the next submission and auchhhh i didn't ask the court's permission. Thank goodness, she was quite pleased when I delivered my second submission. I hope She won’t mark me down for that.

just wanna give a little of background of our moot question. it was about whether the commonwealth has a broad implied nationhood power to pass law in regards to obesity in which its provisions seek to restrict the distribution of junk food and prohibit its advertisement on Tv and radio and criminalise the offenders. our main submissions were based on 3 grounds namely, the scope and the breath of an implied nationhood power, whether the commonwealth can make a coercive law and in doing so, whether it accords with proportionality principle. obviously, the state would argue the implied nationhood power should be interpreted narrowly, whereas the commonwealth would argue otherwise.

anyways, this mooting isn't about who wins or loses the case. it is purposed not just to give us a real experience to stand on our feets and try to defend your client position, but also to gather us to be able to co-operate with our opponents. the justices seeks to mark us on our team work, i.e. correspond with every single issues.

here are some photos taken before and after the mooting.

carolyn was a senoir counsel for the Plaintiff, the state government. her arguments were the implied nationhood power should be intrepreted narrowly on the ground that it will give the commonwealth a wide ranging and unlimited power to step into every single matters that the states traditionally have jurisdiction to deal with.

Li Yin was a junior counsel for the plaintiff as well. her submissions were based on coercive law and proportionality. she argued that the commowealth had no power to be paternalistic restricting people's basic rights of dietary choice.

that's the sequence. on the right is the plaintiff acting on the behalf of the states. on the left is the respondent acting on the behalf of the commonwealth

Janice was my partner. she's a senior counsel

i was the junior counsel, acting for the respondent

that's four of us sitting on the bench where the justices sat

this was taken outside the court room

HuH...Sigh

What a bugger....NEVER EVER stopped throwing me with lots of biasness and senseless and inhumane discouragement words. NEVER EVER heard from you a single word that builds me up since I knew you. Why??? Did I do anything wrong or hurt you in the past? I Never ever firedyou back though you always discourage and hurt me. I always tell myself ‘well you don’t mean it.’ But, I have certain limit of containing those. ALWAYS AND FOREVER I guess, showing me with your preference towards other. Well I don’t mind if you show me your preference. I respect your freedom of choice. However, Can’t you be a little bit sensible towards people’s feeling surrounding you? What I require not an immense or unreasonable degree of sensibility. Just a dinky or modest sort of respect and sensibility is sufficient.

Friends, I just want to say that’s what I feel right now and accordingly I just want to say that words are powerful and truthfully I say that those words eroding me from the inside out. So please do watch out what you say. At one hand, I hate complaining and I seek to end this bad habit. On the other hand, I don’t know what to do to end this. One and the only possible way out is to be bold to say to that person to stop doing that but of course in amiable and polite way. I WILL DO IT ONE DAY..IT’S A MUST

MusimSemi

bulan september menandakan musim salju sudah berlalu dan digantikan dengan musim semi, musim yang penuh dengan semerbak aroma bunga-bunga yang sedang bermekaran. wohhh aq seperti sedang di taman bunga..senangnya.moment paling bagusnya adalah waktu angin bertiup kencang, bunga-bunga yang kecil berterbangan (itu loh bunga-bunga seperti bunga sakura)..ehmmmm beautiful dan wangi bener.. disamping itu, penderitaan musim salju sudah berlalu (yang perlu nangis-nangis_an lagi kalo pulang malam hari dari kampus)..hehe bukan nangis bener-beneran, tapi hampir nangis karena gax tahan dengan cuacanya yang sangat sangat dingin..sigh

tapi ada juga sich yang bikin ika kesel dengan cuacanya..tau gax sich, semakin hari, cuacanya semakin panas menjadi-jadi..sepertinya matahari ada 7..hehe kayak film sikera sakti aja..tapi kalo mau tahu apa yang ika pilih antara musim panas, gugur, salju dan panas, ika pilih musim semi. yes yang pastinya, gax musim panas karena kalo musim semi uda sepanas gini, gimana lagi coba kalo musim panas? man it knows no humanity at all..besar kemungkinannya, telur bakalan masak dengan sendirinya kalo di letakkan di jalan raya atau di lantai teras...ok enough for the complaint matter..let's face the sunny day with a big smile every morning. i hope i won't get so tanned by the end of spring up to the summer..

ok spring and summer, you know i like your warmness but no burning sensation please..need to cool down a few degree a bit..okay..cool

The Same

isn't the message of the cross for all? yes it is.
hasn't God said that he who set the people free are free indeed? yes it is
hasn't God said if one member of the family is saved, the whole family is saved? yes it is
did God create us in order to destroy or to let us suffer? certainly Not. in Jeremiah 29:11, He said, He has a plan for us, a plan not to destroy us but to prosper us and give us hope and better future.
why am i quoting those promises? am i doubting God? certainly Not. i was just lugubriously distressed in my spririt about something. hustling God to act quickly to save those people that came into my mind at that period of time.

i took courage to myself in God's word that ensures me that He's the same God, 2008 years ago, yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever. if in 2008 years ago, God healed men from all kinds of diseases, resurrected men from death, performed miracles, restored children to their fathers or family, and delivered the possessed men from the evil spirits. God will also do those things in this era. it takes you to believe and to keep praying and asking. i believe God will keep His promises because He said that He who promised will bring it pass.

so i rest in His promise for i know they will be set free and strengthen as well...

Tougher

seemingly it's getting tougher and challenging.

pawpaw

i found a treasury to day..it's a pawpaw. the name sounds a bit weird to me though. anyways, after spending few months in Hobart, finally i could eat pawpaw. that's my dinner. well not as in pawpaw only, i ate salad as well. it's really really refreshing and yummy.

sadly to say i cannot enjoy it the way i enjoyed it back in Malaysia and Indonesia. it's really really expensive and that's why i called it as a treasure despite the fact that i miss eating it. anyways, there are many other fruits as substitution to it, so not to bad lo..

Tears of the day

i cried..cried..it's a mixture of acknowlegment of how great the love of God and how unworthy i am to receive all that God has done for me. no matter how weak or far i am, He's still faithful. He can't deny Himself that He loves me and His people. no greater love i found but His. others had failed me but He's not failed me.

i was just asking God, what is in my hand. i don't even know what God has placed in my hand. the only and one that i could boldly say 'i have You alone God' that i can proud of having and that has kept me going. Please show me what is in my hand Lord and empower me to use it wisely. above all, draw me closer to you each day for i want to know your heart and feel your heart beat.

now i can't stop crying..

two living testimonies

what struck me this morning was the thought of wanting to be a man who was possessed by 2000 evil spirit which i have posted in earlier entry. he ran after Jesus when he knew that Jesus was coming irrespective the constraints. it's true that one will prevail than many when we are on Jesus's side. this is the same when Jesus came to the earth..He was rejected by many but subsequently, He prevailed. so Now, the question is would you and i run after our Father? Honestly, i miss God. i miss the time when i see His creation i see Him. i miss my first love with Him..

another thought that i wanna be is that i wanna be like Ps Julie Khoo. Not literally wanna be Ps Julie. But i wanna be like what she said few years back when she was preaching. she said 'you can put me anywhere and i would just blend'. i remember she said that she was in the hospital and she saw an indian lady lying on the bed and Ps Julie just spoke hindi (Ps Julie is a chinese). what drives her to that lady and many people is the spirit of God. she is not looking at the constraints that may hold back from reaching out to those people, but she turned her eyes upon Jesus and God seeing her heart just grant her favour in everybody's eyes...remember this song

turn your eyes upon Jesus
look full in His wonderful face
and the things of earth will go strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace

what makes me to have a thought to be Ps Julie was because i was just complaining to God about all the constraints that unable me to be fruitful. yea Ps Julie is the best testimony.

so all the constraints should not be the excuses not to be fruitful..take heed of the two living testimonies.

complaint

i was just complaining to my mom about how dearly ridiculous the fav foods that i could enjoy at dirt cheap price back in Indonesia. fish is incredibly expensive..seriously it clobbers my purse. eel fish is one of my fav and according to my mom this is considerably cheap in Indonesia. well, i should not have complained about the eel fish because when i was in Indonesia, i did not like to eat it at all. it looks like a snake for me. But it is different NOW. i indulge myself eating that and i relish every single bite of it.ehhhhmmm yummy.

no worries, my mom promised me that she would cook lots of eel fish when i get back to Medan. sigh i can't wait for that day to come..

wannabe

hehe..i just wanna be pampered...

I...
just wanna be taken care of by
just wanna be fed
just wanna be given a shoulder to cry on
just wanna be given a hand to walk with
just wanna be given an ear to hear about my side stories or my complaints perhaps
just wanna be given a smile when i wake up
just wanna be given a heart that tells me that i am loved
just wanna be...just wanna be...pampered

Ps Mike-planetshakers

probably everybody knows about the poignant and heartbreaking story of a fake deadly cancer that Ps Michael Guglielmucci had told 2 years back. it has been said that he composed a song called healer and told the whole congregation that he was suffering from cancer and they all prayed for his healing. on the top of that he sang that song at hillsong church with an oxigen tube in his nose and neither his wife nor his whole family knew that he was hiding the truth that he was not suffering from the cancer that he had told the whole world.

healer became an anthem of faith for believers. yea it's heartbreaking but i think God must have spoken to him that urged him to confess to the whole world that he made it all up. in fact, the song touched me not in the way that healed me physically, but healed me from the inside out, viz, my broken heart. i was having my tough time at the time and the lyrics of the song were just come like healing water to my heart. my heart was starting to let go those hurts and allowed him to give a new branded heart (perseverance and forgiving heart).

personally, i thank Ps mike for composing that song and i pray that God sees him through as his case is going legal proceeding. lets all of us pray from him yea. i believe the song has spoken to us individually...pray yea

devotion

God always and always have things to impart, share, amaze, affirm you and i everyday. But it takes you to open your heart to know and receive from Him. sometimes he also makes me laugh. he's a real joker to me. as i was doing my devotion yesterday from the book of exodus, He amazed in the way that remained me once again that when He asked you to do something, He will provide all the things that you need from the scratch. in the chapter that i read, he asked his people to build his house. God opened his people's heart to give all the resources like gold, silver, bronze, scarlet yarn, etc. you must be wondering where the resources came from? weren't they slaved and poor in Egypt? well, it's true but God didnt let his people went out of egypt empty handed. instead, they came out rich. besides all the materials, God also provided the skilled men who can do all kinds of artistic craftmanship. so, do not worry when God assign you a task, He will provide all the things that you need. just wait for Him. He's never too early or too late, but He's always on time.

today, i did my devotion in the very late morning. can you believe i woke up at 11am? Omg, i cant believe myself that i could sleep from 9.30-11am. yea i admit that i was very tired since the trip. anyway, i read from the book of Mark 5:1-18 which i was curious about what God had shared through the pastor on sunday. i read myself, and as usual, He spoke so clearly on two things. firstly, i have given you power to resist the things that wane you in your faith to Me.
He gave me an example of a man who was possessed by 2000 evil spirits, nevertheless, that man still approached Jesus when he knew that Jesus was coming. those 2000 evil spirit were powerless when he made a choice to use the power that God has given him. He made his way to come to Jesus and ask him to set him free from those evil spirit. so, when we wane in our faith to God, exercise the power that he has given you and run to him for more help. secondly, go and testify what God has done for you. in that chapter again, the freed-man was asked by Jesus to be a living testimony to those people who has not known Jesus yet. and guess what they were amazed.

so what now? it's time to act them out. be a doer of His word. an experience yourself how real amd powerful his words are.