New Mobile

haha I was commenting on FB on how I wish to have a new mobile. well Alex was laughing at me when I asked "who wants to get me either BB or Iphone"..hehe *Magic came in play i believe. i just got it not even a night...thank you dady.

okie. that will be the end of my entry for today. i wanna explore on my New BB already...

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not to my surprise that the old feeling and fear of the end year moment come and hunt me once more. but my inner spirit encouraged me stand firmed on who I am in Him. Lord, you said "greater the one who is in me than the one who is in this world".

NYATAKANLAH KUASAMU DI DALAM KU. ini tanganku, hatiku, khawatirku dan hidupku kuserahkan hanya padaMu. terima kasih Tuhan, karena aku masih punya Engkau tempatku mengadu dan bersandar. Aq mengasihiMu Tuhan. Mampukanlah Aq hidup untukMu.

His continuance love and presence

strangely exhausted for almost everyday. I wonder whether it is the workloads or the 3 hours journey from my house to my working place that cause me to feel the extreme fatigue. I tried to press on everyday forgetting all the pains. yea not surprisingly, I could just bear the pain during the day remembering that works required my attention to get them done in time. However, I cry silently after I come back from work because the pains start taking a revenge on me after I ignore them during the day at the office. The pain is indescribable.

Nevertheless, my God is always there for me. when I was tempted to quit or even to complain, He said this to me "you asked Me to give you a job and I gave you. there are responsibilities that come along with what you were asking for. Don't worry I'll give you strength to do what I ask you to do. just do your best and I will take care of the rest."His continuing love and presence that help me to press on till today. what a wonderful God. one thing about knowing Jesus is that He makes me smile in midst of melancholy situation and He assures me that my hope in Him will never be disappointed as I stay faithful through the moment of refining. another promise that I hold unto is the assurance that God sees the trouble and the brokenhearted of His people and He TAKE them all TO HIMSELF so that His people could experience a total freedom through believing in Him.

Beside that, through His spirit, He opens the eyes of my heart to understand His words and also makes me pray a prayer of refining myself from all kind of wickedness. His words say that "wipe out oh Lord the wickedness of the people until you cannot find any of wickedness in them". This verse means that God is not wiping out the people but their wicked ways. No doubt in the process of wiping out our wicked ways, we may see suffering in the flesh as if we are being wiping out not our wicked ways. but do not be fooled by what we see. keep our eyes on Him, stay faithful and press on till we see our wicked flesh being renewed and obedient to the spirit of God that is in us.

That's all for today my brothers and sisters. hope we keep pressing on till the end of the day and we shall pray and encourage one another ya so that we may grow together. God Bless you all. Hugs and lots of love.
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B'day wishes

birthday is coming soon and i have been waiting for such day to come. I don't want party or birthday cake,. but i want a new mobilephone. i have been planning to ask my dad to buy me a blackberry on my birthday. so he will have no excuse for my request. hihi...i want it not because i wanted for the sake of wanting it. but i want it because my old phone cannot co-operate wih me any longer. I cannot tolerate with my old mobile phone anymore. can you imagine, the voice of the person from the other side of the phone is out of sudden shaken and it happens when the conversation begins for about 5 minutes. IT'S ENOUGHHHHH.

God's business of peeling off

"KETERBUKAAN adalah kunci dari PEMULIHAN...
......BUKAN soal BENAR atau SALAH tetapi RESPON..."
the above statement really strikes me this morning as i attended a morning service. trying to hold my tears but it was pouring out greatly. but i can assure you that it was tears of Happiness. It refreshes me about God's business of peeling off my dried and ugly-looking layers of skin. He is peeling it off layer by layer *outchhh...He is making me beautiful each day. But it is not as easy as you might think of. it is really painful.

just wanna share a short testimony on what i was going through last friday. my senior asked me to review case of a new client and upon reviewing we found something out of order. i checked and re-checked, unfortunately i still couldn't find the one that we were searching for. in the end the email was sent to this client inquiring about the matters. in the meantime, as i was drafting the case summary of that case, i found the one that we were previously searching for. and i said to myself oh NO, THIS IS NOT HAPPENING. unfortunately it was happening. i was really down that afternoon because to my mind i made a huge mistake. i got 2 choices of which one was favourable at least in my own thinking but it was actually otherwise, and the other one was not going to give any favor as i had to admit that i made a mistake and would be scolded. i chose the second choice and i got a different respond. My senior did not scold me *She actually just found out about the case just before i found out about it,,,,probably She was waiting for me to tell the truth,,,in respond She comforted me and gave some advice,,,I was really and am still grateful for God helped me to take a step of which i was previous tempted not to do *the confessing part,,,my flesh is weak but greater is the One who is in me than the one who is in the world *which is me

my point of telling the aforesaid testimony is that as i was opened up for correction, God enabled me to respond to what He has revealed to me and favors overflew simultaneously. I pray for all my brothers and sisters in Christ and I that God will do the works of peeling off until we are perfectly beautiful in due time.

so just be prepared for another peeling off ya,,,love you all,,,LOVE YOU LORD...

first laughter of the day

hahahahaha
I laugh because I am happy
it isn't just today but it was since yesterday morning during the sunday service.
it is just about another confirmation from God.

*I forgot where it is written but basically all it says is that "we are alive, moving and exist because of Him" and "we are the descendant of God". as for the former, all i got is that "I know that I am here for a reason and I don't need to find a reason why in the first time I ever existed in this world. And every step I take God directs and nothing happened by coincidence *but I have to give ears to His words and a willing heart to obey and trust Him wholeheartedly."

as for the latter, it all confirmed to me that I am His and He will help me to be like His Son Jesus Christ. so I ain't worried about anything but I will pray and submit everything [plans, struggles, future and all] to God.

coffee ???

ups what happen??
suprisingly, Coffee has no effects on me already.
has my body's immuned to coffee without me realising it?
oh no oh no
this is not good,,
what am I supposed to drink when I feel sleepy then??
erhm,,,aHaaaa, Ginseng will do or Red Bull *the one with sugar,,
yea I am only left with two options,,