YC 016

first of all, i just wanna wanna welcome all my friends who do read this blog. this blog is officially opened once again. hopefully you will enjoy the reading ya.

most probably you do not know that I have been in the cell group in Medan. how extraordinary and exciting at first because huh i had never had a cell group before ever since i was in medan few years back. previously i had to sneak to go for gathering or prayer meeting or the best timing was always be friday afternoon (after school). and now the situation is different, i do not need to sneak in order to go for a cell group. God has given a favour in my parents' sight. horay...i have been given a key of freedom.

this cell is quite unique not only because i'm one of the older members but also how God speaks to me and them wonderfully. not until yesterday, i was being waking up by God in such a way that touched me because i did not realise it until i got back home from cell. meeting after meeting, i have something to share with them. but before i share, i always remind myself and pray that the words that are coming out of my mouth not be of me but of God. i'll stop for a moment when i sense somehow that the words are not from God. how do i know it? well, there is a pressure inside me like 'start thinking whether im saying is correct and i lose track of what im saying' and i have no peace about what im saying as well (i learn the last point from the biblical teaching of Joyce Meyer). but when it is of God, peace rests in my heart.

yesterday, they wanted to hear me sharing as well but i did not. not because i did not want. rather i reckon God did not want me to share on that day. Guess what, God wants me to see the condition of individual heart and the entire cell. they are hungry to hear the word of God, they wanna go more intimately with Him. this reflects clearly from their responds when i said that i had nothing to share. they said 'please don't keep to yourself but share with us. surely you have lots to share with us'. I WANNA GO MORE HUNGRY TOO LORD.

beside the cell issues, i wanna delevop a positive attitude over a new challenge before me. it's just about the postgraduate program that i intended to do. what i have in my hands right now SUGGESTs that it is impossible. but i swiftly change my attitude because im not living by what i see but by what i believe in. God will open the door for me to enter to the university that He wants to me have an influence to bring His name high. all the opposition either from people or my own flesh or thought of impossibility are just weeds that i need to pull out of my ways.

positive mindset and attitude restore the strength and peace that that God has given me.